All this I did without you - 简书
All this I did without you
(摘自 Gerald Durrell: An Authorized Biography by Douglas Botting -1999)：My darling McGeorge,You said that things seemed clearer when they were written down. Well, here with a very boring letter in which I will try and put everything down so that you may read and re-read it in horror at your folly in getting involved with me. Deep breath.To begin with I love you with a depth and passion that I have felt for no one else in this life and if it astonishes you it astonishes me as well. Not, I hasten to say, because you are not worth loving. Far from it. It’s just that, first of all, I swore I would not get involved with another woman. Secondly, I have never had such a feeling before and it is almost frightening. Thirdly, I would never have thought it possible that another human being could occupy my waking (and sleeping) thoughts to the exclusion of almost everything else. Fourthly, I never thought that – even if one was in love – one could get so completely besotted with another person, so that a minute away from them felt like a thousand years. Fifthly, I never hoped, aspired, dreamed that one could find everything one wanted in one person. I was not such an idiot as to believe this was possible. Yet in you I have found everything I want: you are beautiful, gay, giving, gentle, idiotically and deliciously feminine, sexy, wonderfully intelligent and wonderfully silly as well. I want nothing else in this life than to be with you, to listen and watch you (your beautiful voice, your beauty), to argue with you, to laugh with you, to show you things and share things with you, to explore your magnificent mind, to explore your wonderful body, to help you, protect you, serve you, and bash you on the head when I think you are wrong … Not to put too fine a point on it I consider that I am the only man outside mythology to have found the crock of gold at the rainbow’s end.But – having said all that – let us consider things in detail. Don’t let this become public but … well, I have one or two faults. Minor ones, I hasten to say. For example, I am inclined to be overbearing. I do it for the best possible motives (all tyrants say that) but I do tend (without thinking) to tread people underfoot. You must tell me when I am doing it to you, my sweet, because it can be a very bad thing in a marriage.Right. Second blemish. This, actually, is not so much a blemish of character as a blemish of circumstance. Darling I want you to be you in your own right and I will do everything I can to help you in this. But you must take into consideration that I am also me in my own right and that I have a headstart on you … What I am trying to say is that you must not feel offended if you are sometimes treated simply as my wife. Always remember that what you lose on the swings you gain on the roundabouts. But I am an established ‘creature’ in the world, and so – on occasions – you will have to live in my shadow. Nothing gives me less pleasure than this but it is a fact of life that has to be faced.Third (and very important and nasty) blemish: jealousy. I don’t think you know what jealousy is (thank God) in the real sense of the word. I know that you have felt jealousy over Lincoln’s wife and child, but this is what I call normal jealousy, and this – to my regret – is not what I’ve got. What I have got is a black monster that can pervert my good sense, my good humour and any goodness that I have in my make-up. It is really a Jekyll and Hyde situation … my Hyde is stronger than my good sense and defeats me, hard though I try. As I told you, I have always known that this lurks within me, but I could control it, and my monster slumbered and nothing happened to awake it. Then I met you and I felt my monster stir and become half awake when you told me of Lincoln and others you have known, and with your letter my monster came out of its lair, black, irrational, bigoted, stupid, evil, malevolent. You will never know how terribly c it is a physical pain as though you had swallowed acid or red hot coals. It is the most terrible of feelings. But you can’t help it – at least I can’t, and God knows I’ve tried. I don’t want any ex-boyfriends sitting in church when I marry you. On our wedding day I want nothing but happiness, both for you and me, and I know I won’t be happy if there is a church full of your ex-conquests. When I marry you I will have no past, only a future: I don’t want to drag my past into our future and I don’t want you to do it, either. Remember I am jealous of you because I love you. You are never jealous of something you don’t care about. O.K. enough about jealousy.Now let me tell you somethingI have seen a thousand sunsets and sunrises, on land where it floods forest and mountains with honey coloured light, at sea where it rises and sets like a blood orange in a multicoloured nest of cloud, slipping in and out of the vast ocean. I have seen a thousand moons: harvest moons like gold coins, winter moons as white as ice chips, new moons like baby swans’ feathers.I have seen seas as smooth as if painted, coloured like shot silk or blue as a kingfisher or transparent as glass or black and crumpled with foam, moving ponderously and murderously.I have felt winds straight from the South Pole, bleak and waili winds as tender and warm as a lover’ winds that carried the astringent smell of salt and t winds that carried the moist rich smell of a forest floor, the smell of a million flowers. Fierce winds that churned and moved the sea like yeast, or winds that made the waters lap at the shore like a kitten.I have known silence: the cold, earthy silence at the bottom the implacable stony si the hot, drugged midday silence when everything is hypnotised and stilled into silence b the silence when great music ends.I have heard summer cicadas cry so that the sound seems stitched into your bones. I have heard tree frogs in an orchestration as complicated as Bach singing in a forest lit by a million emerald fireflies. I have heard the Keas calling over grey glaciers that groaned to themselves like old people as they inched their way to the sea. I have heard the hoarse street vendor cries of the mating Fur seals as they sang to their sleek golden wives, the crisp staccato admonishment of the Rattlesnake, the cobweb squeak of the Bat and the belling roar of the Red deer knee-deep in purple heather. I have heard Wolves baying at a winter’s moon, Red howlers making the forest vibrate with their roaring cries. I have heard the squeak, purr and grunt of a hundred multi-coloured reef fishes.I have seen hummingbirds flashing like opals round a tree of scarlet blooms, humming like a top. I have seen flying fish, skittering like quicksilver across the blue waves, drawing silver lines on the surface with their tails. I have seen Spoonbills flying home to roost like a scarlet banner across the sky. I have seen Whales, black as tar, cushioned on a cornflower blue sea, creating a Versailles of fountain with their breath. I have watched butterflies emerge and sit, trembling, while the sun irons their wings smooth. I have watched Tigers, like flames, mating in the long grass. I have been dive-bombed by an angry Raven, black and glossy as the Devil’s hoof. I have lain in water warm as milk, soft as silk, while around me played a host of Dolphins. I have met a thousand animals and seen a thousand wonderful things … but –All this I did without you. This was my loss.All this I want to do with you. This will be my gain.All this I would gladly have forgone for the sake of one minute of your company, for your laugh, your voice, your eyes, hair, lips, body, and above all for your sweet, ever surprising mind which is an enchanting quarry in which it is my privilege to delve.Letter to his fiancée Lee, (31 July 1978), published in Gerald Durrell: An Authorized Biography by Douglas Botting (1999)
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关于电影的英语对话
学习啦【英语口语】 玉莲
　　电影，是由活动照相术和幻灯放映术结合发展起来的一种连续的视频画面。下面是学习啦小编给大家整理的关于电影的英语对话，供大家参阅!
　　关于电影的英语对话篇1
　　A：Hi,jack.What types of film do you like?
　　B：Hi,peter.The horror movies and action films are my favorite. A：Who are your favorite film stars?
　　B：Hollywood stars.
　　A：Oh,have you seen any good films recently?
　　B：Good films,you guess.
　　A：Year,have you seen the new film&Beauty and the Beast&. B：Oh,I watched.The film is a big hit.
　　A：Could you remember what the film is about?
　　B：It is said a love story that happened in an old castle.
　　A：Yes,the male leading role become beast with love.At the ending,the beast become a man with love.What has impressed you most in the film?
　　B：The plot that the god of the forest open the path to the castle for the female leading role impressed me most.
　　关于电影的英语对话篇2
　　A:Hi，vivian，have you seen any good movies recently?
　　B:You guess?
　　A:The horror movies?Our favourite!
　　B:yeah,you are right!I have watched the film &1408&,based on the story of Stephen King
　　A:Oh,I see.He is a very famous writer who is good at Suspense and horror novel.The film&The Shawshank Redemption&is based on his novel too.Could you tell me what is the film about?
　　B:It is said that there is a ghost in the Room 1408 of a hotel.The actor did not believe there is any ghosts in the world.So he live into that room to verify it.In this room he undergone many horror things. At last He was scared to death.
　　A:The film is atracted to me . Haveing watched a lot of horrer movies you think how many kinds of them?
　　B:Overall,two kinds.psychological and visual.For example the Japanese film &The Grudge&is belong to the first kind,in the process of seeing you always feel fear from heart.And the American film &Final Destination&is belong to the second one .in the process of seeing you only feel bloody and nausea.I prefer the first one .
　　A：I can.not agree more!western countrys tend to make bloody movies and Eastern countrys tend to make psychological horror movies
　　B：You means film types are different from countrys
　　A:Sure!Culture differences!
　　B:Could you express it in detail?
　　A:Chinese films are most based on myth.for example &liaozhaizhiyi& tell the stories about the love or hate between the gJapanese films tell us the power of curse,human always be killed without reason only because they touch the cursed things or people.The Thailand movie are meanly about tradional wichcraft,in that country 99%people believe in Buddhism.The American films pay the attention to the visual effect because they have advanced technology.
　　B:En,but no matter which kinds of horror movies we see ,they reveal the same opinion that bad people will be punished for what they have done.
　　A:You get the point,we should keep kind mind and pure soul.
　　B:Now,most people are afraid of seeing horror movies ,especially girls ,and as a good friend of you ,I know you are an exception.Why you like to see these movies so much ?
　　A:Sometimes I feel boring and life is lack of nerve-jangling,and most movies are lenthy .The thrilling plot in the horror movies can make me exciting and guess what will happen next.But now seeing horror movies is bad for our health, what do you think ?
　　B:Yes,the statement is reasonable. A scientific research shows that seeing horror movies has 20% advantage and 80% disadvantage. Of course seeing horror movies can improve our courage but at the same time we feel too much pressure.It does harm to our hearts especially to people have heart disease.So we can see horror movies but just occasionally.
　　A:Yeah,that is why the film companty can not get high profits from horror movies ,so
　　they prefer to make Commercial movie such as action movies ,romance movies ,comedy movies
　　B:um, I suppose so .Do you have time this weekend ?
　　B:Shall we go to see the film&Limitless&?
　　A:how is the evaluation to the film ?
　　B:Very good It is played by the famous actor actor Robert De Niro who you like very much .
　　A:He is my idol!He has fine acting an have played many film.His performance in the film &texi driver & is my most favourate.
　　B:Have you got the time?
　　A:Um,what about one oclock
　　B:One oclock.I had better go
　　A:Ok see you then
　　B:See you
　　关于电影的英语对话篇3
　　A Do you have any hobbies ?
　　B My hobby is very wide, reading ,swimming ,walking and so on .But I like
　　watching movies most .
　　A I also like watching movies, I like to watch most of the film is a TV
　　drama .What about you ?
　　B So do i .
　　A Which movie do you like best ?
　　B Titanic .
　　A Oh .The film is too classic .Do you still remember the film classic lines?
　　B Of course .If I am Jack in the movie, you are Rose.
　　A OK.Let's say a few words of classic dialogue .I say first .
　　A ROSE ：I'm so cold.I can't feel my body.
　　B JACK: Rose, listen to me. Listen.It brought me to you. And I'm thankful, Rose.I'm thankful.
　　B JACK: You must do me this honor... promise me you will survive... that you
　　will never give up... no matter what happens... no matter how hopeless... promise
　　me now, and never let go of that promise.
　　A ROSE:I promise.
　　B JACK:Never let go.
　　A ROSE:I promise. I will never let go, Jack. I'll never let go.
　　B Oh.I'm going to cry, this film is really very romantic .
　　A Yes.Do you want to revisit the movie ?
　　B That's great.Let's go.
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